And then all of a sudden, everything came crashing down. Like someone blew a gust of wind and knocked down your cards. The cards that made up your life.
I can't comprehend anything. Why me? What did I do wrong to deserve this?
I think it's because I ate meat every Friday during Lent and didnt really care....
Any whoooo, I guess the saying you only have family as support is true (with the exception of the true friends); because apparently it's okay for you to have a group of friends and then half of them leave, because someone else comes in and thinks it's okay to ruin everything. But I guess thats how things in Plattsburgh work. Great. Let me know how that goes....
Ohh and apparently college changes the guy that you've known since you were fourteen. The one guy that you wanted to spend your life with. The one guy that said he wanted to marry you and be with you forever. But it's okay that he randomly left...because college changes people.
That's bullshit.
If I hear that excuse one more time....I might explode. College is a poor excuse. What changes people is other people. The influence of immature idiots that think relationships arent meant for college. If you love someone, youre with them. You dont not talk to them, or take your relationship off of Facebook.
You love them. You love them for their chaotic self, when they're stressed and happy. You love them like you first saw them. Like the first day they gave you butterflies. And you never stop.
I'm broke. I'm hurt. I'm confused.
And even though my family and a few great friends keep a smile on my face every day. It's you I want at the end of the day.
And you left at a bad time...
College does change people. As someone who has been through college and post-grad, every experience changes you. In college I wasn't the same person I was in high school, and now I'm not the same person I was in college. And neither are the people I was friends with in each of those experiences. And unfortunately, sometimes, you grow apart.
ReplyDeletePeople change for different reasons: people, circumstances, society, and just life in general.
But the one thing that you need to keep in mind is that even though you think people around you are changing (for whatever reason it might be), you're changing too. Everyone is changing. But as long as you're true to yourself, then that's all that matters.
And so what if people change? If they way they're changing or the person is becoming is someone you don't like, then you're better off.
You may not feel great right now, and I've been in your shoes, believe me, I have. But those feelings will change. There will be things about yourself in a week, in a month, in a year from now that at this moment, you never knew were there. And that's a beautiful thing. You'll be okay, you'll be better than okay.
I understand that. Life goes on, everyone knows that. But wouldnt you think that if you've been with those people, or one person for so long, that they owe it to you to at least say something? Everyone might be changing...but that doesnt mean to change your respect.
ReplyDeleteIf they're respect changes, change yours. If they don't respect you, then they don't deserve yours. And when you find someone who truly does, they won't ever stop.
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